Judson's Legacy

Heartache and Hope

Fading

Fading

Dear Judson, I miss you.  More and more, I can’t remember the fine details of life with you.  I’ve forgotten so much.  But my heart remembers and rejoices and weeps all at the same time, even if the details elude me.  In your life, and now your death, you’ve left your mark on me, Juddy!

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Acknowledgement

I ran into an old colleague at lunch today, one whom I have not interacted with for a couple of years.  However, I knew she was aware of our loss.  As we briefly chatted, she had this sweet and knowing look on her face, but it appeared she was unsure as to whether or not

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Deja Vu

Today Jessie is the exact age Jud was on the day she was born: 19 months, 24 days old. This feels strangely significant to me. Since Judson died, much of my time spent with Jessie has felt like deja vu-as though just a moment ago I had been experiencing life’s milestones with my one little

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Birthday Wish

Dear Judson, It’s my birthday.  I miss you terribly. I have been asked many times what I want for my birthday and in each instance I just want to answer “Jud.”  I crave you more than everything this world has to offer.  All the wealth, wisdom, health on this earth could be bestowed upon me

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Patchwork

Patchwork

Used clothing and fastidious stitching have been creatively combined to become one of my most valued possessions.  At first glance it is a quilt that might appear to be like any other patchwork coverlet, but for the grieving parents who dressed their little boy in these clothes, hugged his body while adorned by these garments,

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Dry My Eyes

Dry My Eyes

I was crying while on the phone with a friend this morning when Jessie suddenly ran over to me with a kleenex in hand and dabbed my face.  My heart melted. I have never before given Jessie a kleenex, nor was I aware she even knew what tissues were or where to find them in

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Family Photo

Family Photo

One of my favorite hobbies, photographing the daily life of our family, has lost much of its luster in the wake of Jud’s death. Since losing my “sweet man”, pictures have become a glaring reminder of our loss, rather than a reflection of our joy. It is not that I have stopped taking pictures, for

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My Plate

Each of us is given a “plate” in life, so to speak.  I am discovering that my Father is not as concerned about what is on my plate as much as how I handle what is on my plate and how it can help me grow into the person He wants me to be- He

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