Judson always had a desire to teach his sister.  We used to tell him that when she gets a little bit bigger, she would be able to learn the things he was teaching her and he’d begin to see the impact of his efforts.  However, it was right around the time when Jud went mute

Our bereavement counselor, who specializes in death related grief, mentioned what is called the “7, 8, 9” theory to us tonight.  He indicated that months 7, 8, and 9 after the death of a loved one tend to be more difficult than all those that preceded.  Really???!?  Is more severe pain even possible?!!??  I sat

Even with her pink Converse and feminine features, Jessie is regularly mistaken for a boy. Case in point, when  a friend and I were walking Balboa Island the other day, Jessie was wearing a little white shirt with a pink logo that said “I am not a BOY!”, navy blue pants, and pink tennys.  Despite

I was very emotional last week.  Ironically, I have not been as emotional the last couple days, yet have been struggling more with Jud’s absence. This has made me recognize how quickly I tend to perceive strong emotion as an indicator that I am not doing well… But in reality I am often doing better

Some blink and suddenly their kids are grown. I blinked and suddenly my son was gone. I keep blinking. I keep blinking, hoping my son will suddenly reappear. He does not.  He cannot in this lifetime. A lifetime seems too long. Yet, when people are reaching the end of their days they often express that

  Dear Judson, The other day, Jessie asked if she could watch videos on the computer.  We have videos of her, which we offered to show.  But, as always, she wanted to watch yours.  She sat and watched the video we showed at your funeral with me as she so often does. Your sister loves

I started singing this song to Jud when he was about 6 months old.  It just kind of rolled off my tongue and stuck. One cool dude that mommy knows,His name is Jud with the cutest nose.She hangs with him each and every day,And if she hears him giggle this is what she’ll say:I love

Jessie is at such a fun age. Her personality is emerging and she is chatting up a storm (though not always understandable ). I was conversing with a friend who happened to be at “Judson’s Park” today and she made the comment, “Jessie is such an amazing miracle, isn’t she?!!” Touched when people recognize how