Tonight was another night of vertigo…vertigo of sorrow.
As I sat alone at home and began to journal, slowly probing my ache, my thoughts quickly intensified where I suddenly found myself in a gnarly spin of grief, my heart and mind whirling in heavy brokenness. All my thoughts plunged into a vortex of devastation, swirling viciously as I was plagued with the realities of Jud’s suffering, death, and my subsequent life without him. While my whole body was retching with each mental revolution, I felt like my mind was flailing about, hoping to find grounding for my spiraling soul.
Then, out of the depths of my pain, God reached down to help stabilize me… “In this world you will have trouble, Christina. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)
These words began to infiltrate my mind; over and over they played in my thoughts until my vertigo began to dissipate and I steadied. And where there was severe pain, I was actually feeling comfort and hope.
Life can hurt so darn much, and I have become intimately acquainted with the pains of this world, but in the end, all my troubles have been conquered. Suffering, death, and brokenness are not the end…God has overcome the world!
Indeed, I take heart!