Judson's Legacy

Ugliness of Humanity


We have definitely felt much vulnerability by making Judson’s story public—we are periodically confronted with disheartening critique, strong opinions of opposition, or downright vulgarity.  It’s been toughening us up to endure more and more difficult remarks, a challenge that seems to be par for the course of allowing Judson’s life and story to be shared in a variety of contexts.

But I unexpectedly brushed up against some of the ugliness of humanity yesterday.

Throughout the morning, my phone kept beeping with notifications of new messages regarding Judson’s story—evidently I was receiving a fresh onslaught of comments.  So I did some investigating to determine the source that was spawning such interest and discovered Jud’s video had been posted on a site that was generating thousands of views.

I was encouraged that someone had been moved enough by Jud’s life to share his journey on a platform that had already produced over 30,000 views for the day.   So I poked around the webpage, curious about the site, and noted a link for comments; it indicated over 100 people had already written a response to Jud’s video.  Probing further, I clicked the link and began to read.

There were expressions of sadness and condolences, along with tears and tenderness toward Jud.

But sprinkled throughout the page were many absolutely brutal comments conveying disgust and hatred toward our precious boy and family.  Comments full of expletives and words of violence jumped off the page.  One included “… I hope his mom gets raped…”

I paused at the deprivation, aghast at such an evil thought being anonymously hurled into cyberspace at a woman—a woman who happened to be me.  I felt a lump in my throat as I continued reading.

People piped in, expressing how they were repulsed by some of the comments and standing behind Judson and our family, but then I read this, “I hope he died slowly, from excruciating pain…LOL…little filthy nasty ass-cracker!”

Tears began to pour down my cheeks as pain pulsated through my chest.  I was sickened by the darkness of humanity, the depth of evil in hearts, the sheer wretchedness that people felt comfortable expressing online.

Somehow we had become the random target for these bullets of verbal violence being fired into the air.  And although I could separate myself from the circumstance recognizing these words actually had little to do with Jud and our family, I was disgusted and broken.

I felt the searing pain of evil as I sat in our big, comfy green chair and wept for humanity—sickened, appalled and horrified by the wretchedness in mans’ heart.  We clearly live in a harsh, broken, deteriorating world.

But I was simultaneously thanking God.  I was thanking God for sending his Son into this depravity to rescue us.  I was thanking God that he is alive and at work in this world.  And in that moment, I was especially thanking God that Judson is safe, that my boy will never again endure the evil of this world.  He is protected from the hostility of these comments.  Judson is free from sin and death.

In this acute experience of humanity’s ugliness, I found myself basking in the beautiful hope of God’s kingdom.  And in the midst of my own vulnerabilities, I felt an even greater sense of calling to share the story of our son who is now completely immune to this kind of evil but lived a life that speaks volumes of truth, grace, and hope into its ugliness.

Let your kingdom be on display through the life of our son, dear Lord.  Let your kingdom come.

I just want to mention that for every horrible comment we receive, we also receive hundreds of gracious, loving, moving, and kind remarks about Judson and our family.  To view some of those precious comments you can visit Judson’s Facebook page or this YouTube video.  Thank you to all who express your love and support!!  

Categories: general life, Judson

23 Responses to "Ugliness of Humanity"

  1. Dorci says:

    I am so sorry, Christina. Unfortunately, those are in no way isolated incidents. That kind of "trolling" has become a regular occurence on the internet. It seems the uglier the better. The world is getting more and more evil and, of course, it is for those lost people that Jesus died. I pray the Lord will continue to wrap His comforting arms around your hearts to protect you from those arrows of the enemy. he is alive and well, but only for a short time. God, and we, will be victorious over evil. I thank God for you and your willingness to share your pain and suffering with others in hopes of comforting others with the comfort that you yourselves have received and to raise awareness of this terrible disease. God bless you as you continue to do His work. I’m sure you and Jud are helping more people than you even realize.


  2. Just love —nothing more —-you all are great people. 🙂


  3. I am so sorry to hear that you had to read such horrible things about yourself and your precious Judson. It amazes me, how cruel some people can be. I did however, find myself wanting to lash out at them but, I am afraid that my words would not be so nice. I just pray that these heartless, misguided individuals find their way to the Lord.

    I know your a strong woman and have everlasting faith in the Lord and this will not nor will anything keep you from sharing Judson’s precious life and educating us all. Sending love, hugs, and prayers to you and your beautiful family.

    Much Love,
    Jamie L. Hackett

  4. Hi Christina,

    I’m so sorry you had to endure those brutal words. I am saddened for those who wrote such hateful things. How must they be hurting in their own lives? This is a reminder of how consistently we need to be praying for our world and those in it. I will for sure be praying for the souls of those lost children who could think of nothing else to do but attack you.

    Your story is amazing. Jud was an angel on earth and is now rejoicing with his Father at the fact that his family are determined shepherds for the flock of Christ!

    It was nice to see you at the shower! Keep on writing…your words are changing the world!!


  5. Angie Green says:

    Dear One,
    My heart hurts, and my first response was anger, when I think that anyone would be so sick, twisted, evil and lost to revile the precious memory and legacy of Jud, but then I am reminded what the world did to Jesus, that’s how the world would be without the precious blood of the Lamb!

    Of course we know that there is a spirit of "anti-Christ" throughout the world, but to be so blatantly faced with it in such a despicable, hateful way just serves to remind us that we, the people/children of God will of course have many enemies, especially when are walking in the spirit of truth that honors and glorifies the Name of Jesus, our Lord.

    Let us agree together to stand on the truth (as moms who know the truth) that "greater is He that is me, than he that is in the world" and leave the sick, evil men/women to God who will surely judge them rightly. Hang in there, sweetie, you must be doing something very right and making a difference, or the enemy wouldn’t be paying much attention to you. I’ll be praying for your continued strength and commitment to Christ in loving memory of Judson.

    May you have the courage, strength and renewed joy and peace to "keep on keeping on!"

    Blessings, Prayers and Hugs, Angie

  6. Lisa Adsit says:

    Hi Christina, I am lifting you and your husband and family up in prayer right now. I am so very sorry that this has happened. Thank you for sharing your precious and beautiful Judson’s story and for carrying on his legacy. What a special blessing you are.
    I pray for God’s comfort, peace and encouragement to fill your heart in a very special way today and everyday as you travel this journey.
    God bless you and your family.

    Sincerely, Lisa Adsit

  7. melanie says:

    I’m so sorry, Christina. But so thankful that God’s truth is still true in the midst of the ugliness. Let His Kingdom come.

    Just out of curiosity (and I’ve wondered this for other people whose lives reach beyond just their own small spheres and brush up against fame or a bigger public), will there come a time when you will choose not to read the comments and thoughts of strangers? I am not expressing an opinion, just wondering if you have considered it.

  8. Amy Dresher says:

    I am so sorry that you had to read such awful things about your precious boy and family! You are so right, this world is lost and that is why Jesus came to die for us. I pray that one day those who said such horrible things will be saved and that they will know love and not hate.

  9. Rebekah says:

    I am so sorry that you have had to face these kinds of comments. It is indeed horrific that people could say or even think such things. It is frightening and saddening to live in a world that is so fallen. How much worse it would be if there was no salvation and no hope… how thankful I am that we have been given both!

  10. Dear Christina,

    There just simply are no words…

    Simply know that you and your family, especially precious Judson, are loved more than you know.

    Prayers and Hugs,

  11. Cathy says:

    Hi Christina,

    I always take the time to read your blog because I learn so many things about life and faith and God. Thank you always for sharing from your heart.

    As I’ve told you before, though I have never met you, I am encouraged by your faith and trust in God. Whether it is pain, doubt or the evil in man’s heart, you always manage to look up and point people to Jesus.

  12. Cathy says:

    Hi Christina,

    I always take the time to read your blog because I learn so many things about life and faith and God. Thank you always for sharing from your heart.

    As I’ve told you before, though I have never met you, I am encouraged by your faith and trust in God. Whether it is pain, doubt or the evil in man’s heart, you always manage to look up and point people to Jesus.

  13. Barbro says:

    Yes,people can be really grusome at times!You lost your Judson.Why should people be more hash on you because of that?You did absolutely no wrong.You have given Krabbes desease a face,and that is quiet admireable.Just hang in there.
    My thougts and prayers are with you!
    Love Barbro in Norwäy

  14. Jess says:

    I am speechless. When I read your and Judson’s story my heart broke. When I watched his video, I just couldn’t even imagine the size of your pain and loss…and to think people’s minds when to such an horrid place. Really, I am just speechless.

    Unfortunately, in our society controversy sparks interest. So as people rise to defend you and Judson, hie beautiful legacy will spread.

    I am so sorry.

  15. Sarah Dudko says:

    Hi Christina, Im so sorry you had to read such vile comments from such vile people. I have seen this happen on various sites I have come across and it just shocks you to your core that people can actually be full of that much hate and evil. Hundreds upon hundreds of people from all around the world love Judson and his family

  16. Susan V. says:

    I am sooo looking forward to meeting your precious son when we all get to heaven and meet our wonderful Lord and Savior Jesus! Psalm 139 has been my life’s special chapter when times have been rough as well as joyous. Don’t be shocked at the emails you will receive from those whose minds are depraved and without the knowledge, grace and compassion of our Lord. We as believers are commanded to pray for our enemies and those who abuse us. Cling to those family, friends and e-pals that are as blessed as I am with your family blogs…keep them coming!!

    Until we meet again BLESSINGS to you and your family Christina,

  17. Traci says:

    My goodness – how horrible! It’s hard to even imagine such people. It makes me so sad – for you, for them… all of it. So terrible.

  18. Cheryl R. says:

    Mrs. Levasheff, I don’t know what to say but I’m sorry. I’m sorry not only for your loss but for the wretchedness that you experience in those posts. I know the website that you speak of as that is the website where I first learned about little Judson. Since I opened that video and experienced his sunshine, I have been eager to learn more about him. Please don’t hurt for the things these people have said, instead know that Judson and your family are far superior to these statements. Your baby has brightened my day with his genuine sweetness, wit, intelligence, and vibrant smile. I’m not so good with words so I don’t really know what else to say. I wish the tears in my eyes right now can right for me because they would right a book. Please stay true to the cause. Your an awesome mom. God bless you.

  19. Jenilee says:

    Dear Christina,

    I am so sorry you had to read all those bad comments people left about your beautiful little angel. I saw the video and cried. I’m pregnant and never heard of the disease your son had to endure. But through it all he never failed to still have that beautiful smile. You are a strong woman to have been able to go day to day knowing he was going to join our glorious Lord soon and I admire you for that. Judson will forever be stamped in my heart and never be forgotten. Please take care and God Bless you and your family until you all meet again.Again thank you for sharing your story and making people aware of the disease.


  20. Such a beautiful smile. I admire your courage and thank you for sharing Judson’s story. You are a blessing. To know that you still have love and faith in God is what helps me to know that God is present in all things. God bless you and the family. You’ll forever be in my heart. Judson’s smile will be a reminder to me to press onward through all things. Thank you.


  21. anon says:

    Your response is beautiful. In this age of internet anonymity and vast access to news, the ugliness of humanity is on full display. When I see those types of comments or read news about the horrifying things that we as humans do or say I find myself appalled by the darkness of human nature. My impulse is to withdraw, to build up walls, to cling to whatever good I think is left within me. Your response is a beautiful reminder that our hope is in God and that we need to go out and share that hope with the world. Thank you for sharing Judson’s story. Please continue to use the internet to spread God’s light in this world of darkness.

  22. jeannie says:

    dear christina
    i have seen your pictures and videos and have to say you and your husband are amzingly strong people. i have been very touched by Judsons story. I pray for things to get better for you and your family.
    if i can ask was Judson home with you and your family when he passed? his story is so touching that i need to find out more about it. my heart goes out to you. warm heavenly hugs sen to you


  23. Laura says:

    Sorry to hear about people acting like that. I think there are some really ill thinking people out there and anyone speaking in the ways that you shared, can’t be right in the mind. But as you said, the few that were speaking that way were so small in comparison to all of the positive, loving and Christ filled comments that you had. You have a very special family and I thank the Lord for you. Your lives have touched many people, me being one of them. Your children make me smile and they warm my heart. Even on the worst of times for me, I found joy in reading your blogs and reading your wonderful stories about your kids. This is truly a blessing.

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