Judson's Legacy

Two Buttons

One year ago today our family visited the “Happiest Place on Earth” for Judson’s special wish.  Jud wore a “Make-a-Wish” button.

This week we ventured to Disneyland for Jessie’s birthday before our passes expire, the ones we received through Make-A-Wish.  Jessie wore a “Happy Birthday” button.

Two buttons.  Two very different experiences.

It is as if one button represents “death” and the other button represents “life.”

Both children were born into the same family.  Both children, have the same genetic parents.  Both children are sharp, beautiful, vibrant kids.  Yet, one child must endure extreme suffering and die at a very young age, while the other likely will not.  One was predestined to wear the “death” button while the other gets to wear “life.”

I cannot help but wonder how these sorts of things are determined in the grand scheme of the Master’s plan.
Why is it that Jud suffered terribly from Krabbe disease but Jessie will not?  Why is it that I was born into a wonderful family in the United States, while another person is born into extreme poverty in Africa and must endure starvation and disease?  Why is it that some children are born into dysfunctional, abusive homes, while others are born into loving, in-tact families?

I don’t understand it!

But one thing I do know…with greater privilege comes greater responsibility; those who have been given much will be held accountable for much more.

I have been given much.  I will be held accountable for much.  I have a grave responsibility in this lifetime.

2 Responses to "Two Buttons"

  1. Christie says:

    I like your inspiring conclusion to these perplexing questions that just don’t make sense.

  2. Stacie says:

    I have been reading/following your blog for quite sometime now. You are an amazing woman and even tho I cannot understand what you are experiencing, as a mother I can empathize and IMAGINE how horrible it is. Jud is such a lucky little boy to have you as a mommy. He never knew a moment in his sweet life without love and God. What a lucky little boy!! I am so sorry for you loss of Jud Bud. He has taught me so many things.
    Your stories of Jud and Jessie bring smiles (and tears) to my face always. I am glad that Jessie had a great 2nd birthday. By the way, she was born the same day as my oldest boy Aidan. He turned 5 on Tuesday. Also, I know Jud was born on Christmas Eve, my youngest son Logan was born on New Years Day; so close. Anyways, I just want you to know that I am always praying for you and know that Jud is watching over you and Jessie and Drake. What a special little boy he was. Thank you for sharing him with us.

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