Judson's Legacy



Awhile back I was invited to write an article for Christian Women Online magazine about God’s grace through Judson’s suffering and death, and asked specifically to describe the manner in which God has carried us through our circumstances.  Occasionally, I check to see if there are any new comments posted to the article.

The other day I noted a new comment but was a bit taken back by the content…

“Sucks to be you!” it read.

The remark lingered in my mind.  Interestingly, it wasn’t the clearly callous and heartless nature of the response that caused me to pause, it was the substance of what was being communicated; the author was overtly expressing contempt for my life.

A comment such as this can tempt me into self-pity, buying the lies that my life indeed “sucks,” enticing me to scorn my suffering.

Truth be told, most of us want a life that would be desirable to others; we want experiences that are attractive and might even elicit yearning and envy from people.  We expect to feel validated if somehow others find our journey to be alluring.  Living in this world we are bombarded with tweaked messages that assign skewed value to various life experiences and it is easy to digest these lies.

Since losing Judson, I have been faced with a life that others might consider unappealing or even loathsome.  On one level it stings, but on a much deeper level I find myself overcome with the hope that the Lord, in fact, honors that which the world deems unattractive.  He blesses the poor in spirit, those who mourn, the meek, those who hunger and thirst, the persecuted, and more (Matthew 5) – those who are rejected by the world are cherished by God.  He esteems that which is disregarded.  He values what is despised.  He adores what is mocked.

So where the world may look at my experience and say, “Sucks to be you!” I want to lean into my Father who declares, “Beloved are you!”

8 Responses to "Sucks"

  1. Lois says:

    amen. i am touched by your family’s everyday testimony for Christ. one day Christina, if i ever go back to California (i was in CA from Dec 08 to May 09 for a student exchange programme in UCIrvine) i would love to visit you and your family if you are willing. i would love to hear your testimony in person some day. if not on earth, in heaven 🙂

    fellow slave of Christ currently in Singapore,

  2. susan says:

    My first thought after reading this was that I’d love to be able to get to these comments before you – to delete them so you never see them. What thoughtlessness.

    But I love the way you turn it into a reminder of how God cherishes those who suffer – who must walk down paths not desired by the world. And I love how you share what you learn with the rest of us!

  3. Kristy says:

    Great articulation of what you mentioned last week at Bible study. You have such a gift of expression through writing. God is so obviously inspiring your fingers as you type and of that, I am envious! 🙂

    Love and prayers,

  4. aunt sue says:

    Right on Christy. The Truth will set you free . . .

  5. Robyn Morton says:

    Wow! My first impulse was a desire to reach out and "wring the neck" of the person who posted this. Then, my next feelings were of pity for this person who apparently does not have a loving relationship with God, for if he/she did, they would realize what a blessing Jud was in your lives. And, even though the loss of Jud is overwhelming, the gift of Jud beats the loss of Jud, hands down. I am sorry that you have to endure the pain these remarks bring and I am sorry for the small-spirited person that left these remarks. Your life is alive with your love of God and you are greatly loved. Blessings, dear sister. No way does your life suck–God does not give us "sucky lives!!"

  6. Rebekah says:

    I cannot fathom what would make someone write something like that… but your thought-provoking response is a blessing to me!

  7. Christina,
    What a tragedy that this person fully missed the purpose of your words written in the article. You’ve experienced "God’s grace through Judson’s suffering and death" as you said above, and He HAS carried you through this whole process. Your story, and your eloquent way of writing it, speak His grace into many of OUR lives too… and for that I am so thankful!

    BELOVED ARE YOU! You’re right! And, God uses your words today to remind me that BELOVED AM I too!

    Thank you!

  8. Freya Remmer says:

    Hi Christina,
    I just finished reading your book last week. It was very well-written, but mostly, I found much-needed encouragement. I just had a baby boy born 6 weeks ago with a rare genetic disorder called Apert Syndrome. It’s a pretty intense diagnosis, and we knew during the last 1/2 of my pregnancy. So, we, too, stood for healing, yet did not receive it. I related to a lot of what you said, so I just got on your website to check it out. (I was thinking about you). I read this blog entry about the person’s insensitive comment, "Sucks to be You", and I was so encouraged by your response. Our little boy’s situation will lead to him leading a life of disfigurement, and I imagine he’ll experience some rejection from those in the world who don’t get it, you know. Your words encourged me to stay focused on the Heavenly perspective.

    Thank you for walking through what you’ve walked through with such a Godly attitude and heart. Ive been inspired to do it right.

    Freya Remmer

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