Since Judson’s death, I feel like my head has been screwed on backwards. I can’t think straight. I have a harder time remembering things that I was once able to easily recall, I feel confused more often than ever before, and my problem-solving skills feel like they have diminished.
Not that my noggin was particularly adept in these areas, but it seems I’ve lost brain cells.
Is this a physical or psychological issue, or both? Are my synapses not firing correctly?
Whatever the case, it has become apparent to me that tragedy does many things to a person, and though I didn’t expect it, it has also made me feel like I am losing my mind. I guess healing from significant loss is not just necessary for the spirit and soul, it is essential for the mind and body as well.
I hope I find my mind soon, otherwise, I might have to start pleading insanity.