There have been two occasions in the last couple days where I was asked the common conversational, “How are you?” and I actually responded “good.”  After this word escaped from my lips, it felt strange; my usual response when I am casually asked this question has become “okay” or “I’m hangin’ in the there.” 

An internal assessment immediately ensued…

“Am I actually good?” I asked myself.

No, not remotely.

However, it was striking to me that the loss of Jud was not so extremely heavy on my heart that in the moment the question was asked, a “good” was actually able to slip out of my mouth.

This must progress toward healing.