Judson's Legacy

Missing

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Our dearest friends, Eric and Laura Baesel, whom we have known over eighteen years moved to Texas in 2001.  It was an extremely sad transition for us to no longer see them on a regular basis, but we’ve been blessed to have maintained our friendship, allowing it to even grown over the miles.

One of the things that was particularly meaningful was that after almost a decade of both couples being married without children, we each got pregnant with our first child within weeks of one another.  After Judson was born, Keira Grace entered the world 11 weeks later.  It was such a gift to walk through the “firsts” of parenting together and dream of the relationship our kids would have over the years.

Judson had the chance to see Keira a couple times a year, but even in their limited interactions, he clearly loved her.  He would regularly talk about her and point out pictures of the two of them around the house.  Keira was Judson’s first friend his own age and they had a special connection.

Today, Drake, Jessie, and I spent the morning with Eric, Laura, and Keira.

But Judson wasn’t there.

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As beautiful as it was to watch Keira and Jessie play together, there was a painful pit in my stomach that could not be suppressed, coloring my every thought. 

Judson is missing.  Judson is missing.  Judson is missing.

How did we lose him from this beautiful equation?  Now nothing computes correctly anymore.  Everything is out of whack.

This is not how things were supposed to be!

Judson is missing.

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July 13, 2007: The last time Keira and Jud were together.

 

 

4 Responses to "Missing"

  1. amy white says:

    We’re loosing two families to military moves at the end of June. Not looking forward to this at all. It is indeed a blessing to find families who have walked where you have walked or walk with you as you go. Thats so awesome that you have kept in touch so well over the years. Thanks for sharing the adorable pictures of Kierra

  2. Lora says:

    Thank you for this post. I love the pictures of Judson and Keira together. They are precious. I can’t imagine how sad it must be for you to see the two girls together and wish that Judson could be there too. Praying for you!

  3. Melissa Boice says:

    Hi Christina, I know exactly how you are feeling. Every time my mom has all her grandchildren together, I feel it. Kenji is missing. Forever more, Kenji will be missing. How do we cope with that? What are our reactions suppose to be? Every holiday, he is missing. I hurt for you. This is so unnatural.We should not have to deal with these kind of emotions.Where do we go from here?

    Kenji’s mommy

  4. Jean and Gary Butler says:

    Christina~
    You know…Jud will always be missing. I’ve never lost a child; so I can’t even tell you how to deal with it.Gary and I know one thing…he was a beautiful little boy. I truly can’t wait to see him someday.
    We love you our precious friend~
    Jean and Gary

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