My grief is at a stage now where it is very uncommon for me to cry in a public setting over my loss of Judson. Most of my weeping is done in private. However, yesterday I was so overcome with emotion that I burst into tears outside the ruins of the Whitby Abbey. I couldn’t explain any reason for it other than just being overpowered by my longing for Jud.
After pulling myself together, we walked to a restaurant. When I excused myself to use the restroom, my weeping continued in one of the bathroom stalls. I just wept and wept and wept.
I am sure that all those who saw and heard me probably thought something awful had just happened – I expect they may have been surprised to discover that that “something” had happened to me over sixteen months ago.
Yet, I wouldn’t be shocked if I find myself in a bathroom stall weeping over my Jud Bud in sixteen years too.
Oh Christina~I can remember falling apart in a Cracker Barrel about a year ago. I don’t even remember what I was looking at that triggered it; but I was a mess.One of the ladies that worked there came over and gave me a huge ole hug. She never ask me anything….she just hugged me.You probably will be crying in 16 years….I know I will. My grandma (who raised 11 children) use to say that "tears wash the windows to your heart".Our windows are going to be mighty clean Christina.
We love you all so much~
Jean and Gary
Me and my husband attended the fundraiser at Burnley Football Club last night. As parents ourselves, we were very touched by Judson’s video and story, and admire your great strength in trying to help others. It was a great evening, and all involved were excellent. Let’s hope you made lots of money for the cause.
We shall follow your story.
Good luck with all your efforts. x
Christina,
I have been reading your blog for a while now, but after meeting you, and becoming friends with you both, I am just overwhelmed by your strength and courage.
I can’t believe this happened in Whitby, and we saw you afterwards, and had no idea!! You have this great ability to ‘get on with it’ even though inside you are obviously so full of pain.
We all admire you, and wish that we could have met your gorgeous boy.
We will look forward to seeing you both, and Jessie, in the future, as I am sure that we will. Take care xxxx