Dear Jud…

You are everywhere.

I see you in Jessie.  I see you in Lightening McQueen, Mickey Mouse, and Thomas the Tank Engine.  I see you at every playground and park.    I see you in every dandelion.  I see you in every fountain.  I see you in every car, truck, van, bus, or SUV.  I see you in every construction vehicle, every airplane, every train, and every helicopter.  I see you at every carousel.  I see you in every sprinkler.  I see you in every roly-poly, every fish, every duck, every lizard, and every bug.  I see you in every ball.  I see you in every block or Lego.  I see you in every cup of coffee.  I see you at every mall.  I see you in pancakes, fruit bars, spaghetti, popcorn, “Snap Pea Crisps,” macaroni and cheese, mango, and “O’s.” I see you in every children’s book.  I see you in every 2-4 year old boy. 

Everywhere I have ever been with you, I see you.  Every new place I go, I imagine you.

Others may not realize how I see you every moment, in everything, and that my thoughts are constantly on you; I am learning to live and mourn simultaneously.  But I still see you everywhere.  And though it aches to see you because I miss you with every beat of my heart, I desperately want to see you because you are such a blessing and joy.

I see you Judson.  You are beautiful.

With every ounce of my love,
Mommy