Judson's Legacy



For a bit of time now I’ve been feeling aimless—devoid of direction and lacking purpose.  It’s as if I float around the house not knowing what to do with myself even though there are a thousand things on my list.  I am haphazardly stumbling through my days, even squandering my time, while my vagrant thoughts keeping jumping from one thing to the next without committing to anything. 

Where is my determination?  What happened to my tenacity?  When will my motivation return?

I am drifting.

I hope I find my compass again soon.

3 Responses to "Aimless"

  1. Robyn says:

    Christina, I know I’ve said it to you before, but be patient and gentle with yourself. Don’t get frustrated or disappointed in yourself when you feel that you are drifting aimlessly. Just getting up every morning and being there for Jessie and Drake takes a great deal of effort and determination. Grief is a very draining emotion and demands more energy and focus that anyone can imagine until they have lived through it. God is with you, even when you don’t feel Him. I continue to lift you up in prayers and remind you that you are not alone. I am so proud of you and proud to call you friend. Blessings, Robyn

  2. lisa taylor says:

    It’s OK…..just be……..no more mo less. Rest. Ebbs and flows.remember. No pressure on yourself at all. You are a mommy missing her son. I love you – Lisa Taylor

  3. hh says:

    What beautiful and true words of encouragement Robyn and Lisa shared with you, Christina!

    I just wanted to let you know that I love you and I thought of you and prayed for you several times today.

    I’ve also been meaning to call and let you know that my friend, Monica, went to be with Jesus the day before yesterday (monday night). I’m grieving now (though unimaginably different and less than losing your child), and it’s breaking my heart that she will not get to see her son turn 3 next month or grow and develop just as you didn’t get to see your Judson turn 3 the next month or grow and develop on this earth. Life is so hard and there’s so much suffering. We all need to keep clinging to our faith in God, to keep trusting that He’s in control and He knows what He’s doing. It’s our only hope.

    Again, my heart is with you, Christina. Thanks for sharing so honestly with us. We all love you and care about you so much!

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