Judson's Legacy

19 Months Without Jud

Dear family and friends…

Another month has passed, making it 19 months since Judson went to live with his Savior.  Arriving at 19 months since his death has triggered thoughts of when Judson had reached 19 months of life.  It was at this age that he welcomed his little sister Jessie into our home and became a big brother.  Gosh, he loved her well and enjoyed being with her!  Our hearts were constantly overflowing with sweet emotions as we watched Judson care for his little Ladybug.

Thought this might be a good spot to embed a video of Jud & Jess.

Strangely and painfully, it will be during this month of loss that Jessie will outlive her brother.  On July 3rd Jessie will be 2 years, 10 months, and 14 days old—the exact age when Judson died.  I burst into tears at the thought.  To see her grow and thrive is pure joy, but to watch her develop also brings awareness of all we have missed and will continue to miss without our beautiful son.

Today also marks exactly two years since Jud’s first doctor’s appointment due to my concerns about his increasing lack of balance.  The doctor sent us away that day without alarm for the long-term health of our little man, but it was just six days later, on June 13th, that our tumultuous journey began. 

It is hard to believe it has been two years!  Our lives have certainly not been what we thought they would be (though I imagine many people look at their journey and feel similarly).  So part of our continuous struggle is to release many of our expectations for this lifetime and submit to the plans God does have for us, learning to live and persevere in faithfulness even when we wish life looked different.

Lord, “teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”—Psalm 90:12

Always grateful for you who love us!

Much love in return,
Christina (on behalf of Drake too)

P.S.  There has been a great deal of progress on Judson’s book.  If you haven’t already read about it on my blog, you can find an update here.

9 Responses to "19 Months Without Jud"

  1. Katy says:

    "learning to live and persevere in faithfulness even when we wish life looked different" I just love your heart! Thanks for always sharing! ~Katy

  2. Lori Levasheff says:

    Through floods of tears and joyful longing we can watch Judson love his Jessie Girl over and over because his mother understands the value of a moment. Thank you, Christina. How we long for the presence of this beautiful boy on this earth. We watch him tonight and are once again reminded as when the waves of his remembrance wash over us as at other times. Lord, throughtout our moments here as we await a sweet reunion with this magnificent little man you made with such a large measure of love and tenderness, comfort his mommy and daddy…they need YOU because he is not here with them. Comfort them with YOUR healing balm and its sweetness. Bind up the brokenhearted with Judson’s mommy’s precious and broken heart, her beautiful words, and the use the story of her magnificent little man to give them ‘eyes that see’. (The month of June sucks!) We love you and miss you, Juddy!

  3. Colleen says:

    Christina, Thank you for sharing the video of Jud and Jesse. Their love for each other is a truly beautiful and rare gift. I am grateful to have seen this glimpse into the special bond they share. God bless, Colleen

  4. Rebekah says:

    I’m appreciative of your continuing updates… and I second Katy’s comments. I know my life would be so much more honoring to God if I always remained faithful when it didn’t look the way I wanted it to. Thank you for your ongoing encouragement and being open to sharing what you are learning. You and every member of your family, Jud included, are a gift and blessing to me!

  5. Christine says:

    What a wonderful video of two very precious children. Thank you for sharing it!

  6. Jean and Gary Butler says:

    Christina~We didn’t get to see the video for some reason; but we so know by other pictures of Jud and Jessie just how much he loved his little sister.Christina, you are one wonderful mother. I so wish that I had a mother like you.Like Katy said.."I just love your heart"!!!!! Have a beautiful day and just know how much we all love you.
    Jean and Gary

  7. Cindy says:

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful children with me. Judson was an angel on earth for sure. How loving and tender he was with his baby sister, and now he prays for her and his mom and dad from Jesus’ lap.



  8. Mark Fordice says:

    I love you guys. We prayed for you tonight. -Mark

  9. Grace Caruso says:

    Just wanted you to know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Even though I never met Jud, he will always have a place in my heart. Thank you for sharing him with us. Hope to see you in August

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