Dear family and friends…
The 7th is upon us again, marking 17 months without Jud. As I sit here trying to convey the feelings in my heart, I am finding it difficult to describe in words. It is as though anything I might write could either minimize our pain or overly exaggerate it…which maybe, coupled with the tears pooling in my eyes, communicates volumes. There is forward movement with a struggle that is ever-present.
The last month was very full with our travels to England and New York, so we are looking forward to slowing down a little this month, part of which entails helping our new furry friend adjust to our family. For those of you who may not have seen “Joys of Jessie”, we adopted a little rescue Maltipoo last Friday who we hope will serve as a companion to our Jessie Girl. Our home has already been filled with laughter and giggles as our little lady finds her “real doggy”, Howard Fritz Levasheff, to be quite fun.
Speaking of Jessie, we continue to blow our minds at what a gift we have been given in being able to raise and watch her grow. Though clearly unique, she reminds us so much of her brother, particularly her bright, articulate speech. Yet, we have recently been struck by the fact that she has now surpassed her brother with her abilities…where she continues to gain aptitudes at this age, Jud was severely declining. This leaves us so incredibly grateful on the one hand that we are being given the opportunity to see one of our children develop further and so dreadfully broken over what Jud endured at this stage in his life. This is intensified when we consider that Jessie is less than two months away from surpassing her brother in age.
We miss Judson so much!! He remains primary to our thoughts and a central part of our daily lives, conversations, and even actions. Oh what we wouldn’t give for just a moment in his presence, but we keep our eyes fixed on an eternity of pure, unhindered life together. God continues to bind our broken hearts with this hope.
Much love and gratitude,
Christina (on behalf of Drake too)