Judson's Legacy

17 Months Without Jud

Dear family and friends…

The 7th is upon us again, marking 17 months without Jud.  As I sit here trying to convey the feelings in my heart, I am finding it difficult to describe in words.  It is as though anything I might write could either minimize our pain or overly exaggerate it…which maybe, coupled with the tears pooling in my eyes, communicates volumes.  There is forward movement with a struggle that is ever-present.

The last month was very full with our travels to England and New York, so we are looking forward to slowing down a little this month, part of which entails helping our new furry friend adjust to our family.  For those of you who may not have seen “Joys of Jessie”, we adopted a little rescue Maltipoo last Friday who we hope will serve as a companion to our Jessie Girl.  Our home has already been filled with laughter and giggles as our little lady finds her “real doggy”, Howard Fritz Levasheff, to be quite fun.

“Ohhh, what a comfy bed!!” Jessie said at the pet store.

Speaking of Jessie, we continue to blow our minds at what a gift we have been given in being able to raise and watch her grow.  Though clearly unique, she reminds us so much of her brother, particularly her bright, articulate speech.  Yet, we have recently been struck by the fact that she has now surpassed her brother with her abilities…where she continues to gain aptitudes at this age, Jud was severely declining.  This leaves us so incredibly grateful on the one hand that we are being given the opportunity to see one of our children develop further and so dreadfully broken over what Jud endured at this stage in his life.  This is intensified when we consider that Jessie is less than two months away from surpassing her brother in age.

We miss Judson so much!!  He remains primary to our thoughts and a central part of our daily lives, conversations, and even actions.  Oh what we wouldn’t give for just a moment in his presence, but we keep our eyes fixed on an eternity of pure, unhindered life together.  God continues to bind our broken hearts with this hope.

Much love and gratitude,
Christina (on behalf of Drake too)

4 Responses to "17 Months Without Jud"

  1. Jean and Gary Butler says:

    Love your heart. You know we can’t even begin to imagine what you have been through; and what you are still going through.One thing we can tell you is that Gary and I will NEVER forget Judson…never ever.If I get to heaven before you two do, I PROMISE to take care of your little Judson.We really DO believe that God will "assign" us things that we love to do in life….and mine will definitely be taking care of the little ones.So have no fear…."Aunt Jean" is here. Love you all so very, very much…..and that Jessie Girl is BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!
    Love and hugs~
    Jean and Gary

  2. hh says:

    Love you, Levasheffs! Hope you got my phone message on the 7th….thought of you and prayed for you so many times on that day. Thanks for sharing your hearts, as always, in this update.

    All our love from the Hobsons

  3. 63317 says:

    Wow, I saw your little boy on you tube, then followed the link to his story….I was so moved. I myself lost a young daughter 19 years ago, and completly feel your pain. I want to tell you though that keeping him alive in your everyday lives is very important and don’t let anyone tell you to "move on" I think of my little girl everyday and though the pain has faded, I can still cry for what I no longer have and what I have missed with her not in my life…but there are so many memories I do have and she touched so many lives. Your little angel is still touching lives through his sweet songs and precious smiles. God Bless you for sharing him with the world and know he smiles down on his wonderful family from heaven!

  4. Jodel Guerrero says:

    aww no thank you for sharing your lives . it gives more then you know to share with one another our griefs and how we continue in on with them..
    God Bless your family .. Jody

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