Judson's Legacy

Inching Ahead


I returned home from the New York Hunter’s Hope Krabbe Family Symposium this evening and have much to ponder and process after the week, but something that stands out immediately is how significantly different my experience was from last year.

In my day-to-day living it is very difficult to recognize movement in my grief—though there is a natural ebb and flow to my sorrow, this does not necessarily indicate forward movement.  And, of course, I desire to be inching ahead. 

Interestingly, this week alerted me to just how much I have progressed since my visit to the symposium last year.  The basic nature of my grief has not changed, but my capacities to cope and deal with my loss have recognizably grown.

Whereas last year I had no emotional reserves, this year I had some.  They may have been limited, but they were there nonetheless.

Whereas last year I had little capacity to engage anyone else, this year I found great pleasure in connecting with others.

Whereas last year I retreated inward, this year I reached out.

Whereas last year I could barely process the information offered, this year I even used some of my own gifts to support the program.

I am still reflecting on all the changes I felt in my heart this week as compared to a year ago, but overall, I was greatly encouraged to observe in myself some symptoms that seem to be indicative of inching forward.

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.”—2 Corinthians 1:3-4


3 Responses to "Inching Ahead"

  1. Jenny says:

    I celebrate with you each and every inch forward in your journey. I’m so glad you had such an encouraging time in New York and the pictures on FB were beautiful! I know you were an encouragement and safe place for the families you met. Miss chatting with you in person =) Take care!


  2. Meredith says:

    This post made me happy deep within my heart.

    God is, and will continue to, use you mightily!

  3. Jean and Gary Butler says:

    God is surely using you our sweet friend….love your heart!!!!
    We so love you~Jean and Gary

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