All the days of life for Judson were written in God’s book before one of them came to be. (Psalm 139:16)
Jud’s life and death were ordained for him. Therefore, the pain we now experience was part of the package of being Jud’s parents. To accept the tremendous joys of being his mom and dad also means embracing the pain of losing him.
I would not trade one moment of my time with Jud for anything. I will sit in the pain of his death because I gladly accepted the gift of his life, and what a great and unexpected gift he was, and still is!