Dear family and friends,
As of today, it’s been nine months…we’ve been without Jud for 9 long months, and we miss him SO much!! To many it may seem as though time has flown by, but each day can still feel like an eternity when we’re itching to be reunited with our “Mr. Man.”
Interestingly, up until the last month, Drake and I felt as though we tended to be in similar stages of our grief, though the emotions affected us at very different times. However, this last month has felt dissimilar. Drake has been experiencing more calm in the waves of grief, while I still feel like I am in large swells. Yet, either way, I perceive we are both getting better at breathing deeply and freely in the midst of our sorrow. Whether the waves are small or large, we’re growing in our ability to ride them.
We have been learning so much about ourselves, our marriage, our gifts, our hopes, and our fears in these last nine months. It is as though losing our son has put a microscope on every facet of life, causing us to inspect and re-evaluate each minute detail. The lens we use to view the world has changed, and everything is affected. We are being encouraged to ask ourselves, “What might God be preparing us for? How might He want to uniquely use our journey? How can we use our experience for the Kingdom?” We want to keep our eyes and hearts open to His leading.
That being said, Drake has decided to start working with the college and young adult ministry at our church and I am going to serve on the teaching team for the women’s Bible study in the Fall. We feel enthusiastic about these roles and are grateful for the opportunity to serve our church community that has loved us so well in our hardship.
Drake is also feeling called to get back to writing his dissertation for his PhD. He has gone through a long season of questioning whether or not He was still feeling called to complete it, but after much soul-searching, he has decided to re-engage this passion. We would covet your prayers as this feels like a very large mountain to climb!!
Christina is also working with the Hunter’s Hope Foundation to compile a video of Judson to raise awareness for Universal Newborn Screening (UNBS). This video will be shown to legislative and policy-making bodies on both state and national levels. UNBS is an important initiative for MANY diseases, not just Krabbe. Most states do not test for several of the recommended diseases, even those that have cures (some requiring a simple change in diet), but instead lead to death. It would be an incredible gift if somewhere down the line, Jud’s story might have an impact in helping a child who would have experienced imminent death, but instead might live a full, vibrant life. We will keep you posted when the final version of the video is available.
We are just thrilled to have this Story Of Judson website and hope that God can continue to be honored through Jud’s and our journey-serving as a genuine testimony of the Lord’s character and faithfulness in suffering. Thank you for passing Jud’s site along to others and sharing his story! If you had posted a link to Christina’s previous blog anywhere on the web, would you consider updating the link to the new site?—This would be a huge help for generating direct traffic to his site (which is important for search engines). We’ve also had requests for a banner link to this site; we will be creating one in the near future, so please email me and let me know if you’d be interested in the HTML code to post a banner link for StoryOfJudson.com on another website. Furthermore, RSS feeds are now available for our updates and blogs if that’s your preference over email notifications.
Some of you have stuck with us, reading our story, praying, crying, and grieving for over a year now. Wow! Your commitment to our family, in just these ways, has provided an undergirding that may not be visible but has been sustaining us in significant ways. Thank you!
There have been many times that my flesh and my heart have certainly failed in the months since Jud’s death, but God has definitely been the strength of my heart and will be my portion forever.—Psalm 73:26
Much love and gratitude,
Christina (on behalf of Drake too)