Dear family and friends,
As of today, we are one month from the anniversary of Judson’s death. It is hard to believe he has been gone 11 months. It is hard to experience the memories of what we were going through at this time last year. It is hard to carry on in life while mourning. And it is especially hard to know that our little man is irreversibly gone from this world knowing that these 11 months will be multiplied exponentially.
However, it is good to know that Judson has been set free from his pain and suffering unbound by time. It is good to experience the sweet memories of our incredible little blessing. It is good to carry on in life with hope. And it is especially good to know that we will be reunited with our precious child forever when all our months and years in this world become like a nano-second from the perspective of eternity.
But until then, as we remain here, we are torn apart in continued bereavement. October feels like the marker of an upcoming season wrought with particular heaviness and sorrow. It is this time last year when we began to see the indicators that Judson was facing imminent death if not for miraculous intervention.
Now, a year later, our boy is gone! It is sinking in that he is really GONE!
I admit to, at times, feeling quite alone on this road of exceptional loss (which seems to be a natural by-product of losing a child), but I also know we have been uncommonly surrounded with love and support in incredible ways. In our tragedy we have been given numerous and great blessings!! We want to continue to have hearts of gratitude that see those blessings.
As each minute passes the default lifestyle is to just try and “make it” without our son. Yet we also know there is purpose to his story. We have been asking ourselves some important questions… What does God want to do with Judson’s story—our story? What does God want to do with us as individuals and as a family in light of this journey? Though we are still grappling with grief, we have our ears and hearts open to His leading.
Thanks for caring enough to keep up-to-date on our lives.
Much love and gratitude,
Christina (on behalf of Drake too)